Update: If you are here from the Lettered Cottage, Welcome! This is part two of a two part wrap-up and new beginning post that also includes my word for 2013. You may want to start with Part 1. Thanks for visiting and please feel free to leave a comment!
When I started my out with the old, in with the new, state of Sadie address yesterday, I had no idea the direction it would take. I had jotted down some random thoughts earlier in the week and had caught up on several blogs which gave me food for thought. I basically meant to do a little discourse about my 2012 word and introduce you to my 2013 word(s) and my thoughts about that and lessons learned and so forth. You get the gist. I just thought I’d serve up something clever and be on my merry way into 2013.
What I wasn’t prepared for was the depth of emotion that looking back welled up in me. In looking back at 2012 I had to actually dip into 2011 for it to make sense. Everything just came together in one big blur. I say blur because I actually cried. I wasn’t expecting the tears or the path I found myself on, but I went with it. I figured it needed to be said, at least for my benefit and since only about five people besides me read my blog I thought maybe I could be indulged.
I don’t apologize for yesterday’s rather long post or the content because it did help clarify some things for me. And I think it was necessary for me to deal with the emotions in order to move on. I realized that over the past few years I have gone through some things (who hasn’t?) in a way that got through them, but didn’t actually deal with them. They were filed to sort through later. I also realized that in October of 2012 I began dealing with them in a non-planned sort of way. I think the cracks in the dam finally gave way and I had no choice.
I came to realize that I had to totally depend on God and trust Him for everything, which led me to the epiphany that I had to rest in him, wait on him, trust in him, and listen for his truth. Of course I knew all this, but it sank deeper into my soul and found roost.
Around this same time, I remember reading John 15:4 – “Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.” The word “remain” lodged in my heart and my first thought was that this would be my word for 2013. It would be a reminder to rest, wait, trust and listen. I even wrote it on my kitchen chalkboard wall to remind me, so it sort of became a word for me in 2012 too, along with Joy.
I think Joy will still linger in 2013; Remain will definitely be big this year and I’m pretty sure a word lover like myself cannot be satisfied with just one word, so stay tuned. I am excited about the possibilities for 2013 – to grow, to learn, to heal, to discover words, but most importantly – to remain.
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I think my words are Joy and Hope. The word joy has come up for me multiple times in the last year, and I need to try to keep that in me, despite the problems of life! It’s a much better way to live. And i agree about Remain — prayer really helps me with this.
Great post. Thanks for stopping by Soulsify — glad you liked the ‘Front Page’ post. See you again -here or there- soon I hope.
Sadie, you are really speaking to me. I love that verse from John. God has told me to get to know Him more so I am going to work on that in 2013 by reading through the Bible and spending more time in prayer. Learning to trust Him comes from knowing how He is and really understanding how much He loves you and how He has a plan for your life that far exceeds your own. Good luck on your journey with the Lord in 2013. I have no doubt He will bless you!
Thanks Shelly, it always amazes me when I take the time to really notice God at work in my life. I love how he uses the hard stuff to soften me. As I get older I realize more and more just how much I want to please him. I am truly blessed. Happy New Year!
Sadie, Your post yesterday was what I’ve been waiting for you to do…writing from your gut. Bravo!! Many times before it’s been writing about writing…yet it kept you writing so it was valuable. Again Bravo!
My word for this year (I’ve also been just doing a word for years too) is one I rarely come across yet 3 times in the last 10 days it has come up so I know it is the one…Zeal. To live my life with Zeal for my Lord and find out what that really looks and feels like.
May Blessings abound in 2013 for you and Mr. Piano,
Sue, I love your word! A life of zeal sounds like a life well-lived. Thanks for your kind words – I really miss our writers group – I think of you guys often. I hope 2013 is a great year for you and yours and that you discover much about zeal!