Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight Proverbs 3:5-6
Obviously I didn’t post for a few days, which means I didn’t write. On Friday I probably would have late in the day, but yet again, my Friday was interrupted by circumstances that threw me into a tailspin. This time it was a horse of a different color, but nevertheless, it is a situation that would be in the top two on my angst list.
It made me feel out of control and helpless. And I learned something about myself. 1.) I really have control issues. 2.) I find it really hard to let go of things. 3.) I allow things that aren’t in my control to derail me. (I’m sure I already knew this, but it really hit home to me and I need to say it out loud.)
I also came to the conclusion that God is challenging me, through my circumstances, to give up all control to him in these situations. I know I need to and I honestly have been trying. Just when I think I have, something new develops and I derail. It has taken me most of the weekend to gain perspective.
Because of circumstances and the derailing I didn’t write. I put something I’m passionate about on hold, due to a temporary (hopefully) circumstance that I have no control over. I realized that this is a pattern that has happened before – I’m too ready to throw in the towel and sabotage myself when I feel helpless or out of control.
The situation is what it is, God is still in control (so I don’t have to be), and my role is to Wait on him. To trust him. To rest in him. To listen to him. He has this.
My role is to move forward with purpose.
Moving on in Grace,
PS – What about you, do you ever derail when a situation makes you feel out of control? How do you gain perspective?