Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV
We’ve come through several days together, reading and remembering. Allowing our grief to make itself known. I know many of you are remembering your own grief and maybe my words are helping you in some way.
For me, acknowledging the goodness of God even in the midst of my grief is a way to remember that he alone is good and he is sovereign. I can trust him with my grief and my life.
I felt that at this point in the journey I wanted to say a prayer for you, for us. I hope it brings you comfort:
I pray that we will walk in your light, Heavenly Father and bow our head before you. Help us to allow your peace to radiate our inmost being and fill us with hope everlasting.
Show us how to practice Thanksgiving in everything and live, arms outstretched, palms wide open to receive your goodness. With your help we will love others out of the abundance of love you shower on us . We seek to serve generously.
We know, God that you are good and you will be our comfort. I pray that we find the strength to trust you in all things and acknowledge your sovereignty. Help us surrender to your desires and allow you to write our story.
We rest in your arms because that is the only safe haven. We lay our grief at your feet and ask for healing and peace.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight Proverbs 3:5-6
Obviously I didn’t post for a few days, which means I didn’t write. On Friday I probably would have late in the day, but yet again, my Friday was interrupted by circumstances that threw me into a tailspin. This time it was a horse of a different color, but nevertheless, it is a situation that would be in the top two on my angst list.
It made me feel out of control and helpless. And I learned something about myself. 1.) I really have control issues. 2.) I find it really hard to let go of things. 3.) I allow things that aren’t in my control to derail me. (I’m sure I already knew this, but it really hit home to me and I need to say it out loud.)
I also came to the conclusion that God is challenging me, through my circumstances, to give up all control to him in these situations. I know I need to and I honestly have been trying. Just when I think I have, something new develops and I derail. It has taken me most of the weekend to gain perspective.
Because of circumstances and the derailing I didn’t write. I put something I’m passionate about on hold, due to a temporary (hopefully) circumstance that I have no control over. I realized that this is a pattern that has happened before – I’m too ready to throw in the towel and sabotage myself when I feel helpless or out of control.
The situation is what it is, God is still in control (so I don’t have to be), and my role is to Wait on him. To trust him. To rest in him. To listen to him. He has this.
My role is to move forward with purpose.
Moving on in Grace,
PS – What about you, do you ever derail when a situation makes you feel out of control? How do you gain perspective?